I’m just coming to the end of the first part of a 5 month run of film festivals, and I’m not sure what day or month it is right now.
It’s hard to explain the exhilaration of the highs and depression of the lows. But the one thing that is unmatchable to any other profession I’ve been in, is the bonding friendships that are formed on this journey. Artists all over the world are so much the same and so amazing in their process and desires. I guess that’s why I believe you can’t teach someone to be an artist – you just have it in you, all the way down to your soul!
This is no life for anyone with a thin skin or anyone who wants a more comfortable existence. It seems there’s always a challenge or plans are being changed at every plateau. In the last few years, I’ve seen an incredible resistance for new and groundbreaking projects and art forms to be given a chance. The main money funnels toward the ‘sure thing’. Even the festival circuit has changed; it’s more a platform for independent filmmakers to show their projects to specific audiences, then it is a place to find sales and distribution. This is neither good or bad, it’s just the trend of the market today in which an artist has to adapt. My intuition was that with the Internet as a viable force within everyone’s grasp, there would be a lot more available distribution channels and a lot more artists emerging and finding a place for their specific voice.
It seems the desire with film production is to only shoot for the billion dollar box office return and taking any small chance on a story without big returns, just won’t see the light of day.
I believe the heart of artists will always persist. And when technology changes and known avenues close down, we find a way to keep our hearts beating. I feel that the viewers will eventually get tired of being fed the same cookie cutter entertainment and start seeking out the ‘underground’ stories and new art forms, and then we’ll have a new avenue in which to get our voices heard. This seems to happen again and again throughout history, so I have hope for the future, and I will push toward the next project, no matter the uphill battle!
The most recent conversation I had was about being a purist in the world of film. We had an endless dialogue about what the real essence truly was.
I don’t really want to take a stand on this subject, but I do have a lot of experience and I’m aware of my preference. My background comes from extensive use of manual Nikon cameras and E-6 film (slide film). So, in that sense I am a purist when it comes to captivating the absolute best picture possible. I don’t think a negative does justice to a photograph. I like the look of pure positive film–it almost makes the image come alive. In fact, it is a living image, not a digital representation. This is beautiful.
I wasn’t going to write about the passing of Prince, especially when it’s so close to Bowie. But as the last 24 hours have come and gone, I found myself shed a few tears. I was listening to the decades of music that has so greatly not only influenced my life, but has transformed aspects of my growth and has had an overwhelming effect on my personality and art.
Growing up in the Minneapolis area, Prince was more like a king than a musician on Tv. He gave us artists hope and inspired us to find our own path. He encouraged us to be unapologetic for who we are, and to kick butt while doing it! He was one of those artists who, even if you didn’t like his music, you couldn’t hate because of the commitment he had for his art and his exquisite music.
We just wrapped up in Houston…and it was an amazing trip! We were able to join other incredible filmmakers who had robust stories and absolutely top-notch production value. It was a humbling, intimidating, and surreal experience that I would not trade for the world.
I’m somewhere above New Mexico or entering Texas air space right about now as I write. 30,000 ft above the ground. A great time to blog, right? It’s almost apropos since this is similar to my life the last few years, up and down. I’m in upward momentum right now! And that’s not to say that any part of pushing our movie and setting up the next project, is easy or smooth. This is truly our moment…
It’s a day before the Los Angeles premiere of our movie, Living Lost, and I thought I’d feel more excitement. That’s not to say I’m not excited, but it takes so much work to put on a show and get all the pieces in place, (especially when you’re independent) that there’s very little time to partake in an outpour of emotion. I have just enough time to put on the next hat and keep the train rolling.
Greetings from the road!
For the past couple months, I’ve been romantically living out of a suitcase, and I’ve got at least a few more months to go. And as crazy as it sounds…I love this! It’s not the pinnacle of stability, but what in life really is stable?
Top of the morning!
I’m sitting in Ipswich, in the middle of a bit of a whirlwind, at the International Film Fest in London. They tell me this is one of the oldest cities in England. It is beautiful and without rain. Wow, our lucky day!