Greetings from the road!
For the past couple months, I’ve been romantically living out of a suitcase, and I’ve got at least a few more months to go. And as crazy as it sounds…I love this! It’s not the pinnacle of stability, but what in life really is stable?
When I was in high school, I first wanted to be an architect, to do drafting, especially with computers (CAD), but it didn’t hold my interest for long enough. In college I studied finance and accounting. I was always good with numbers and it seemed like a logical choice. These were stable choices that I knew would lead to a secure job. I had learned from society’s ways that a person wasn’t supposed to take chances if it led to the possibility of insecurity. One was supposed to do the right thing–the logical thing, and be secure, whether or not it brought you true happiness.
But I was never okay with the easy or the safe route. Maybe that’s why now I am so able to throw caution to the wind and do whatever it takes to follow my passions. Another school of thought is that each person has a path and so fate’s hand will play out the way it’s supposed to be. I’m not sure if it’s passion or fate. I was never comfortable sitting still and doing the the same thing over and over, day after day, in a cubicle where everything has already been decided and I’m just a cog in a machine.
In reality, I’m probably still just a cog in the machine of my time, but my drive to create and strive for something more seems to keep that fire inside me a little more tame.
Even when I was working at a bank, I was always looking for ways to change the financial structure. I wanted to experiment with new products and methods. That was not met with any sort of enthusiasm or encouraged in the least! It was during that time that I decided to devote my life to the theater. This was a complete 180 from the safe, practical life I had set out for myself. But I figured that I knew how to make money. I just didn’t feel confident in my ability to take chances or give my all to my passions.
Ever since that first plunge out into the deep unknown, I let my fears go and allowed opportunity to come my way. I created new businesses, among other things. I’ve had to learn how to hustle, how to create opportunities, and not just accept the traditional means-to-an-end. And ultimately, I’m now looking into the future and embracing the change technology is bringing to storytelling, and to entertainment as a whole. And I want to be part of the process of building new platforms for artists to create and get their work seen and heard.
So no, I won’t be safe and I may not even be secure, but I’ll be happy, and that is what matters most to me, suitcase-in-hand and all.