We just wrapped up in Houston…and it was an amazing trip! We were able to join other incredible filmmakers who had robust stories and absolutely top-notch production value. It was a humbling, intimidating, and surreal experience that I would not trade for the world.
Oh…and did I mention that our film Living Lost won Silver for First Feature Film! We are DEEPLY honored and excited about that!
The Texan hospitality is so warm and welcoming. I can’t say enough good things! I think the state of Texas liked us so much that it created the biggest storm in the states history and flooded the freeways and airport to keep us there…obviously. But, we finally made it out, and I don’t think anyone lost a leg, but it was quite a force to behold! It reminded me of how small I am in the scope of things, and how fragile life can be. And, especially how quickly life and plans can change…
Change is a good thing for me to keep in mind while I’m rushing around trying to complete one project and start the next one. I wake up worried that nothing is getting done, and then before the day ends, things fall into place or even better, possibilities open up. And yet, it doesn’t stop me from worrying daily. In the moment, everything feels so important and has impending deadlines which are absolutes in my head. When it doesn’t go my way or according to plan, it still seems that everything works out. To my chagrin, I dare say, most times things go better than what I imagine. And yet, I still treat each event and deadline as if it were life and death. I tell myself, it’s because I care deeply about what I’m doing, that I can’t treat it lightly. But, it’s probably more that I like the feeling of being in control of the situation, even though I have a lifetime of experience which proves I’m not in control of anything.
I have an uncle who would say to me, “Don’t worry so much because there’s only one day that you won’t survive.” So I guess I’ve survived another event, another day, another second. Of course I’ve got a plan for the next event, and time will keep marching forward. And I…I’ll do what I can to balance working hard and letting go of perceived control.
This is a valuable lesson every artist should teach themselves, because the artist is the hardest on himself. But in the end, it’s best to trust that the universe will guide you in the right direction.
Enjoy the journey!